Baseball

My parents bought me a left hand glove.
They did their best. 
A slow moving mystery filled with foreign gestures; 
the coach touching his peaked cap, tapping his chest, 
the crouched catcher signaling between his legs. 
Later, they asked what kind of sport was played on a diamond,
Was the soil hard? Would I be rich?
And home plate-was it made of china? 
Why is the short stop not short? What is a bullpen? 
Some days I’d answer patiently.

Another glove was out of the question
Even then, I knew not to ask,
that the savings were gone 
and there was less meat for a week 
because of a leather extravagance.
“Cricket players don’t wear gloves” was the only objection 
And that was quickly shushed by my mother.

I learned to throw with my right hand
Weeks of quiet practice with the misfit next door,
pitched tennis balls careening off the garage wall.
Never accurate but I did get strong

Peering from left field, I’d hope for pop flies
but other things distracted me, 
like the way they sat erect in the stands, reading their foreign paper.
My teammates would squint at the outfield
following the line drive to my outstretched glove
Their cheers prompted my parents mistimed applause 
As I hurled the ball in an errant direction.

I would grip the bat and swat like mad at the incoming pitch 
but half of swing is attitude.
I’d try to earn my way with a solid hit,
Then stranded on base, I’d wait for the coach’s signal,
But stealing home is always tougher than it looks

Baseball is not a game of effort so much as belonging.
Each fielder standing alone, occupying their territory
Or at bat planted over home plate, guarding their inheritance.